I Just Can't...

A Week Two Update

I’m gonna start this week’s post with the Health Update, and then into some thoughts I’ve been having about all of this.

I feel Good.

First, my body feels pretty decently good, especially this week. If everything tracks similarly, I believe I’m gonna be alright.

Treatment Day (Day 1), I was tired just from the day. It was a long day of sitting and waiting. It started with blood work, then a doctor visit as we prepared for treatments. Once we finally got a vein to do treatments, it was really just sitting and allowing the IV to drip until the bags were dry. Then it was time to go home and honestly, it was just a quiet evening.

Wednesday (Day 2), I woke up and noticed I was a little more tired than usual, but I was able to function per my normal. Got up and went to Fuel Coffee House, A place where everyone knows your name, and they’re always glad you came. (Someone should write a show and a song with those lyrics…)

I was fairly productive at the office that morning and felt pretty good…until about 1:00 when I felt like I hit a brick wall. As I was sitting in my office chair, I thought: “well this is different.”

So I used my “Take a Nap Anytime” card, and did just that.

I came back to the Church and taught our Confirmation Class, then went home and pretty much went straight back to bed.

Thursday (Day 3), I was tired. I did get some work done, because Sunday does come every week, and then that brick wall popped up again. So…NAP.

Friday (Day 4) was Port Placement Day. I was honored by being driven by my good friend Monte, who graciously got up early to get me down to my appointment. This guy is a good one. He was with me the whole time (except for the procedure part) and did more than he had to…that’s for sure.

The rest of the day was pretty blah, so I took a nap, but then I got to go and the the Public Announcing for the Last Home Baseball Game of the Season for the Llano Yellow Jackets.

Definitely one of my favorite spots in Llano.

Saturday (Day 5) was a good day, but it was just a chill day of resting and getting some things done around the house. What I do remember though that stood out about that day is I was praying that I was going to be able to make it through Sunday…because again, Sunday comes every week.

Sunday (Day 6), OH MY GOSH! GOD IS SO GOOD! I woke up, had energy, and God was praised…Even on the Sunday After Easter! (IYKYK).

After that it’s been pretty much smooth sailing and this week has been filled with a bunch a different busy moments.

So what have I learned?

Well, I have learned that sometimes, I just can’t.

Sometimes, I just can’t do the things.

I have heard it many different times in many different ways, but I have learned that I just have to listen to my body.

If you know me, you know that I have a very eclectic work life. Not only am I a pastor of a growing and thriving church in the heart of the Texas Hill Country, but I am a Volunteer Fire Fighter, a Presiding Elder, a Football (and now Baseball) Public Announcer, and I am the Chief Operations Officer for Revive Ministries. My full time job is the whole Pastor thing…just in case you were wondering. :)

SHAMELESS PLUG: Go to Revivetexas.org and Check us out! We’ve Got lots of spots for Children’s Camp and Youth Camp this Summer!

Often times I get the feeling that people wonder how I do it all. The truth is…everyone is just as busy as I am, I just have ADHD and I do a bunch of different things because I get bored easily.

But I have learned this week through experiences that I just can’t sometimes.

I have learned a few times this week, that I have a need to set some boundaries. I love doing the things that I do, but I cannot do everything. Let me be clear, this doesn’t. mean I need to give something up right now. This just means that when I have to say no, I have to say no, and that’s gonna have to be ok. I love my job at the church, but I don’t have to do everything to make it work. In fact, if I were to cease existing the church will still go on, fire calls would still be made, football games and baseball games would still happen, and camp will go on.

What I’ve learned is that while I am called and love and enjoy these things, I just have the honor of participating. I do not control them and they are not my things. They are gifts that God has given to me; they do not define me and I do not define them.

This is a good thing. This is a healthy mindset.

It’s just a reminder that I do not own anything, that I came into this world with nothing, but I will leave this world with everything in Christ. But I have no plans to go anywhere yet…so, with that being said, I’ll do what I can when I can…and I’ll take a nap when I can’t.

Stay Hungry For God, My friends.
Pastor Bryan